Anything but what I should be doing

I was sure I was not the only one who always wanted to do any- and every-thing other than what I was supposed to be doing, but never really understood why, until it suddenly dawned on me. It's the professionalism that every damn activity has reached in this world today. You would not be doing something unless you were a pro, or were in the process of becoming one. Were it otherwise, you would surely be paying an opportunity cost because everybody else in the world would be making better use of their time. (Comment: the learning process itself is a well-defined activity too, and you would be doing it only if you had the pro-level learning aptitude).

The problem then is that you don't allow your mind to breathe. You don't let it run free and land somewhere. You beat and mold it into what you "should" be doing now. You kill down all scope of creativity. You take out the element of choice. While you should have been the master, you become a slave. If you're lucky, you may still be doing what you wanted, but at any rate, it's no longer "you" doing it. The effect is that when do finally get down to doing it, it demands the very professionalism you were trying to escape when it was that "other" thing you wanted to do. That's not how it was when I was a child.

I beg. I beg to be free. Let me free. Please, let me free. Let me choose. Let me soar. Let my mind breathe. Let my heart and actions be one. Let my life be mine, and yours yours. Once again.